Being a person is so hard. If you live life negatively, people think of you as a pessimist, someone who beats themselves up over bad thing that happens. Yet living a life so positive, always looking on the brighter side of things, that's not easy for me to do. There is definitely nothing bad about being positive, but I find a perfectly-positive life unrealistic, not down-to-earth, and extremely hard to swallow.
When things don't go your way or when you don't get what you want, it's definitely easier to just be upset about it than to constantly remind yourself that "There is a reason for everything". If there are reasons, then where are the answers as to why the going gets so unbearably tough sometimes? Will we ever get our answers? If you face one setback after another, how do you accept "There is a reason for everything" as an answer?
Such thoughts just cloud up my mind and make each passing day harder than the one before. When the days get easier, I feel like I'm being built up to be torn down. I don't ever want to find myself believing that happiness will never ever come to me.
I won't ever have to resort to believing that, right?
